Day 320: Recital pressure
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Vienna 1971—A Student Journal
A year of music, study, travel, sightseeing &
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Day
320 — Recital pressure
17-Jun-1972
(Samstag–Sat.)
TRANSCRIPT
Nice day. Practiced. I’m afraid I’m really going to
“choke” this recital piece—mainly because I tighten
up my throat so much, and there goes the air. And
I’ve developed an I-don’t-care-attitude (out of
possible spite) and it’s not helping. I’m going to
try and change.
Finished up (whole day) electronic music. What a
relief.
REFLECTIONS
I
don’t care attitude? What’s
this? I can’t believe my eyes. Doesn’t sound like I’m
very confident. I suppose, as with this whole year in
horn, that I’m always stressed out when it comes to
horn playing because I’m not “the perfect player.” I
make mistakes and I am probably a bit frustrated. I
don’t suspect it’s that bad.
Am
I stressed in 2009? Of course,
that’s life. Only now it’s the economy, work stress,
money stress, getting-old stress, my
401k-is-in-the-toilet stress, money stress, work
stress, money... Just normal stuff. Like everyone
else.
Electronic
music. Done.
Yay!
John
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