36 Years Ago

36 Years Ago, Vienna 1971—A Student Journal

Day 320: Recital pressure


Vienna 1971—A Student Journal
A year of music, study, travel, sightseeing & friends.

Day 320 — Recital pressure
17-Jun-1972 (Samstag–Sat.)


Nice day. Practiced. I’m afraid I’m really going to “choke” this recital piece—mainly because I tighten up my throat so much, and there goes the air. And I’ve developed an I-don’t-care-attitude (out of possible spite) and it’s not helping. I’m going to try and change.

Finished up (whole day) electronic music. What a relief.


I don’t care attitude? What’s this? I can’t believe my eyes. Doesn’t sound like I’m very confident. I suppose, as with this whole year in horn, that I’m always stressed out when it comes to horn playing because I’m not “the perfect player.” I make mistakes and I am probably a bit frustrated. I don’t suspect it’s that bad.

Am I stressed in 2009? Of course, that’s life. Only now it’s the economy, work stress, money stress, getting-old stress, my 401k-is-in-the-toilet stress, money stress, work stress, money... Just normal stuff. Like everyone else.

Electronic music. Done. Yay!


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